Jean Challenge

So like every other girl in high school I am getting pumped for fall (and therefore school) not for the leafs changing (which I am!) But back to school shopping. Do I get more waist skirts, a trend that is bombarding my closet, do I go for the cutout look, or lace or leather? Last year I made the effort to not wear my usual jeans and hoodie, which I succeeded, in the not wearing hoodies often part.
However, this year, I call a new challenge. I only can wear jeans 3-4 times a week, while you might think this is an easy challenge, but a girl thats collected about 15 pairs of jeans and find them gods answers to many outfits. This wouldn't even be this bad if I didn't have the habit of getting mostly dark wash plain jeans, so when i do start going back to school shopping (after I finish my 10 pounds weight loss challenge of coarse) I want to get some unique pairs...

(forever 21)
or most likely something like this (something i already have similar in my closet)

(forever 21)

I was thinking on those off days when I don't done my precious jeans I would wear a simple dress (like that adorable black and pink h&m polka dot dress i got a week or so ago) or maybe a skirt. The real challenge comes when new york state winter sets in... Of coarse leggings can go under the dress or skirt when that time comes. I also want to give trousers a shot, maybe i can find a pair I like that my mother or grandmother wouldn't wear.

Back from a lovely Trip to Hell

Well at least it felt like hell. I went to the beach in Maryland and that part was great. However, my aunt can be, how do I put this kindly, a ragging bitch. I went with her, my cousin, two of my aunts friends and my other aunt (the unblood related sweet one, also best friend of my mom).

I won't go into details of everything, but trust me, her attitude completely overshadowed the thrill of getting a slight tan on my pale ass body.

The highlight of my trip, I was up really early due to my aunt snoring so I got to see the sunrise, which is not an act I do often over the summer (I usually prefer getting up noon)↘

Back from Poconnos

This trip was nice and relaxing which was great. My mom, myself and my grandparents all go the Poconnos in the last week of June. This being the last time I will go for awhile, because next year I will be too busy with graduation and whatnot, I took plenty of pictures.





Tomorrow morning I leave for Maryland with my less than friendly aunt, very very very friendly (to boys) cousin and my other aunt and her boyfriend with her 13 year old son and his 4 year old daughter. Wish me luck :D

Ok well lets see

Well, I just finished working on my local history project for my AP history class. Long story short me and my friend rose were riding and talking about carousels for literally three hours after school. We won't edit the video till Sunday, but I must say myself it will be a masterpiece, a masterpiece of idiocy but, still a masterpiece nonetheless.

What else is new in my life, sadly not much. Unless you feel like counting my finals and regents coming up. I know what you're thinking, lucky you, that sounds like fun. On the guy front I rather not talk about I don't think. However I find I will talk about it, I have trouble dropping the dets on everything in my life. There's was this guy, lets call him Will for kicks, anyway Will and I had a thing for two-seconds, but alas he was using me to get over another girl. How do I know this you might be thinking to yourself? He told me, via text message. I have the worst luck either, or quite possibly the worst judgement ever, I guess a little of both to be perfectly honest.

However, the guy, my weakness, and I hung out a couple weeks ago. This guy has been hitting on my cousin, just to add the frosting to this delicious cake of 'what the fuck were you thinking'. I'm retarded, retarded for his charm and lies. So only my cousin knows and my best friend know about how twisted this "love affair" is. I know everyone else would judge me on this, they knew how he hurt my feelings before, but yet I go back. Time and Time again I go back. Why can't I take my own advice and give him a good slap in the face and move on. I think it is almost impossible to take your own advice. Right now I would normally ask what should I do, but I won't. Number one I doubt anyone will read this then give me advice, also I know what I should do. I should stay far away cause A: hes got a girl thats deff not me and B: the fact he's an ass. A lying ass who just tries to get in my pants multiple times.

This song says it all, thanks Ellie Goulding

We've only ever kissed lying down
We've only ever touched
When there's no one else around
I can be elusive if you want me to
I'm not being intrusive
I just wish I knew the truth

As to why
I wait for you
Longer than the average person would
And why
I think about you
More than I think one should

Our body's fit together like a makeshift puzzle
And It's clear to see why you puzzle me
And you turn your frame
And you whisper my name
As though I am a burden

The End by Ellie Goulding

Well Spring Break...

I’m not gonna get into my whole spring break, mostly because it wasn’t THAT interesting. Except for two days. My younger cousin, the more experienced of the two of us, came over and we went to a party thrown by people at my school. Long story short I made out with a man whore. Not just a man whore, the prince of getting *ussy kind of guy. Class president, athlete. Now, I would be lying if at first this was fun, hell i was pretty typsy and he was drunk. Shit happens right? The idea of this guy liking me, at least enough to make out and get to at least 2.5 base with, the past fat girl, is well, kinda cool. No, I was wrong.

I feel so stupid, why did I do it? Hormones? Captain Morgan? My inner chubby chick? Who knows at this point. All I know is I need to redeem my myself, and stop telling my friends what happened. I’m not sure if i should be okay with this all happening, or go hide in a corner.

Well, this weekend has prospects of another party. Should I redeem myself? Granted, parties aren’t my usual scene. My usual scene is hanging out with a couple of my close friends or sitting at home on hulu or facebook (highly addicting I must say)

What would you guys do? He remembers but, regrets it I’m guessing, for reasons I’m not sure I want to know. I’m not ugly, I’m cute, but not popular, I’m average. He is well, a man whore, and friends of another man whore I was friendly with in the beginning of the school year (however, he was his geeky friend, so its not quite the same…). AHH bein a sexy-single isn’t as fun as people say.

I've done it again

I’m just giving up on daily blog. I’m way to lazy, not to mention forgetful. I have a project due Wednesday, had over a month to do it, haven’t even started it. I’m doing this. I think I should start small. At least 2 blogs a week. Hell, I can do that in one day, so i think even I, the born procrastinator can do it.

Today, I plan on staying home and doing nothing. I know, Im exciting, but I’ve had a really long week. I can workout later and clean my room and start my project. Sounds like a plan to me, however, I doubt I will actually start said project. Ehhh, I’ll probably sit in my pj’s all day and watch old reruns of Psych or Project Runway or watch Singin’ in the Rain like I’v been planning on doing for over two weeks. I even procrastinate when it comes to lazy activities, wow.

Do date or not to date that is the question?

Well dates a strong word, I suppose go out or “hang out” is better suited. There is this guy, and we hung out once, but I see him more. He works at a place I go to lunch a lot during school. He’s nice kinda cute, but totally wrong for me. I mean completely. Mother would not approve at all. Should I give him a chance and just see where it goes or should I just give up now, since most likely it will fail.

And then a Boom Shalaka

Today was interesting, most of my teachers were very understanding on letting me back up work, so thats a plus. The downside, there is a lot of work to make up and I’m tired as hell. I need a nap, or maybe some Starbucks… Since I’ve been home I’ve finished season one of Keeping Up with The Kardashians, keep in mind I started it the day before. This accomplishment I suppose is a testament to my tendency to avoid homework at all costs. Shockingly, I do very well in school, it must be luck, or I’m just brilliant haha.
Now the song of the day is on the older side, i know, but it is still wicked good. It’s one of the most played songs on my ipod. I find its a mix of James Bond vixen and a tango, but with a youthful twist. Just listen and fall in love. You might actually recognize it from an episode of Vampire Diaries, however I heard it at least a couple weeks before it aired (I take great pride nothing songs before they are popular haha).
Boom by Anjulie

Ice Princess in Paris???

Well, I’ll be going back to school tomorrow. It feels kinda odd, since I’ve been out so long. Wish me luck, I’m guessing I have a huge work load just waiting for me, which is just fabulous :D

I just got done watching a movie and a kinda cried. Did I mention it’s a Disney movie, yeah, I have sunken low haha. However, I have to say Ice Princess does kinda rock. I mean come on?

I think I’m gonna start a tradition of putting a new song on my blog everyday. This song is most definitely my song of the day. It makes me want to go to Paris, more than I already wanted to go before hand. Its just so sweet and pure and reflective.

There comes a time for everyone
To find a place where they belong
Feeling alone out on the ocean
Yours and mine are different yet the same
Go out, come back again
Harboring most of the emotion
Quand tu arrives a Paris
Tu ne veux pas partir
Quand tu arrives a Paris
Tu ne peux que sentir
L’amour, la joie
Tu veux jamais rentrer
L’amour, la joie
Tu veux jamais rentrer chez-toi
You climb aboard and sail away
Beyond the stars of everyday
Searching for some clear direction
The shore gets closer everyday
The clouds begin to fade
The compass reveals your destination
Quand tu arrives a Paris
Tu ne veux pas partir
Quand tu arrives a Paris
Tu ne peux que sentir
L’amour, la joie
Tu veux jamais rentrer
L’amour, la joie
Tu veux jamais rentrer chez-toi

Paris by Benton Paul

only got 86,400 seconds

I was thinking people might get the wrong idea about "KnowStuff". Yes, it means to learn knowledge, but more importantly its the experiences. I've never really been in love. I've never just said what I felt with no hesitation. I want to live everyday to not just to reach its end, but to make the most of it. Why count the minutes till the end of the day, why not be in the moment, take everything in. Cause if you don't, you miss chances that won't come back. I want to miss nothing. I want to have the courage to travel after school, not know the language, and not care, just go with it. Learn as go... KnowStuff. Have the courage to tell that guy how i feel, so what if I break my heart, at least I used my heart.

Yeah, we gotta start
Looking at the hands of the time we've been given
If this is all we got and we gotta start thinking
If every second counts on a clock that's ticking
Gotta live like we're dying

We only got 86,400 seconds in a day to
Turn it all around or to throw it all away
We gotta tell them that we love them
While we got the chance to say
Gotta live like we're dying

Live Like Were Dying by Kris Allen

Can't Sleep...

I suppose it doesn't matter since I can't go to school due to my fever. I finished the Catcher and the Rye, not a huge fan by any means, but thats one less thing i don't have to worry about now. Finishing it counts as knowing stuff, since it's a classic work of literature. So hell, I already got my knowing stuff part of my blog done and the sun isn't even up yet so I think that means I'm doing pretty good. Only 363 days more to go to check number 34 off my list.
Oh, i forgot before. If anybody is reading this, I would love to hear from you. Anybody have a similar goal or list as me? Some good "KnowStuff" info would always be welcomed.
Well, I'm not gonna say I'm leaving to go to sleep, cause we both know that's a lie. But, I will try to do something productive, so at a decent hour, like 9am, when god intended us to get up, I can have something interesting to say, other than middle of the night nonsense.

Well, I'm writing this for two reasons

Number one I have been stuck home with a fever for a couple days and have nothing to do so I have been watching Buried Life (aka one of my favorite shows of the moment) and #2 I've been reading the Catcher and the Rye for an English essay project thing. While, definitely not my favorite book ever, I usually go for something more in the vampire variety, it reminded me of my English AP composition teacher. However, I will not reveal her name, even though I'm 95% sure she will never see this or hear of this in any way shape or form, nor do I believe it would connect her identity with my own, I think I'll call her Mrs. Smith. Anyway, Mrs. Smith, has this saying she she loves and tells us all the time, while most likely it isn't a life lesson but, is merely a test taking and essay taking strategy, I still find it amusing. Know stuff. Sounds simple enough, right?
Well, as I said before I've been watching the Buried Life, which is about, if you don't already know, four guys checking off things off their bucket list, then helping a stranger along the way do the same. So in the mist of watching this, it reminded me of a list (or the beginning of a list) I started (I only got to number 68 so far). However, thinking about this whole "know stuff" mentality I had an idea. Everyday I should try to learn something new. Somedays it could merely be a new word, but I'm trying to aim bigger here. Do something, experience, learn something new and out of my comfort zone. In my life, a mere 16, almost 17 years, I've been too scared to get myself into new and uncharted territory. I like routine, I like knowing where I'm going and what I'm doing all the time. I mean I'm not crazy anal or anything, but I've never liked change, but I need change. So, I'm combining two ideas and making them my mission. Take chances and check things off my "bucket list," granted not the most original idea, but its still easier said than done, and to know stuff.
So today, well tonight actually, I'm going to start number 34 on my list. Do a blog everyday for a year. I know, kinda a copy from Julia and Julie, without the food of coarse, but I want to finish a long term, or semi long term goal. So this goal could help me document my mission.
I'm not going to delude myself into thinking people are reading or care about this, but this, I suppose is a journal I'm releasing into the void, the internet, for all to see. I scary thought when you think about it. It's possible for a billion people to see this, my mom, my teacher, the guy of my dream (aka Chace Crawford, I mean come on, you cannot tell me you wouldn't tap that) or any frenemies at school. So later on, whether tonight or tomorrow, since I kinda have to talk to you tomorrow, or I will have to start from scratch and not to mention I would look stupid, i will start to write down my bucket list and hopefully get to 100 soon and then continue to grow upon the list. So what if I can't do everything? So what if its stupid? This is me taking a step into the dark hoping to find a light switch or at least a flashlight with batteries.